Distance

06/12/03
I think about you when I open my eyes
Hoping that what I see next
Is the sunbeam
of your two almond-shaped diamond eyes
Which lightens me
Up to the farthest corners of my soul

I think about you when I close my eyes
Inside my utopian dream world
A place wherein I can be in peace
Just feeling your breath
And your loving arms around me
Just filling me with tranquillity
Through the depths of my subconscious mind

Sometimes I just want to quit
It is so hard not to see you
I cannot take the distance
A silent voice inside of me screams very loudly
I want to be with you now
I know it will be quite some time
But I just know we will make it
It’s you and me for always
As long as we both shall live

I am craving you badly,
I never loved someone like this
And nobody ever loved me this way before
Dear God, let her be the one please
My eyes are playing tricks on me
My heart beats faster and faster
I am infuriated
I never longed for something this way
I close my eyes forcefully
I open them and tears flow out





Spending time with you shook my being
Every minute with you froze
It’s a different feeling
It made me believe I’m so blessed
It made me embrace life more,
It built a burning desire
A craving nothing could please
Except to hold you again

I can’t believe that time flies so fast
Being with you makes me so happy
I never looked forward to seeing tomorrow
Until now
Because I know that for every day that passes
It brings me closer and closer to seeing you
holding you, touching you,
kissing you, hugging you
and feeling your body next to mine.

Just the thought of spending time with you
Makes me excited day in and day out
It’s like adrenaline rising up to my body continuously
Just hearing your voice creates an echo of illusions
It is like a tidal wave that affects me as a whole
Which drowns me and make me forget
my moments of solitude
It is an indescribable force that takes over
A power that is so fierce that it can make me forget
That I exist

Breath-taking sunrises have passed by
But you know I’d trade it to see you bey
It’s incomparable to your bright smile
And your beaming personality
The sun sets and the majestic moon rises again
Another day has passed silently
My loneliness temporarily disappears
Because I know
it’s time to be with you again



I slowly open my eyes and
I awake from my dream
Just smiling, ablaze and happy
Because You kissed me gently and
you softly whispered in my ear,
“It will be us no matter what…”

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my first ever poem :p